more rhythm, less blues

and it ends in the 1475th post

2011-02-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

http://morerhythmlessblues.blogspot.com/

and im moving on.
goodbye.

samquek

recess week (:

2011-02-19T15:47:00.002+08:00

the horrible week is over.
time for a break.

from everything..
yeaahh.

i don't really know why people see the need to 'help' me..
like they see me as this lost girl, without any character or personality..

but i guess that's how i see myself too.

but i am so sick of people doing that..
they mean well i supposed.
it's just that..
it doesnt leave a good feeling in me, deep down inside.

after awhile, you begin to doubt people's sincerity.
and friendship..

my mommy is still the best.

samquek

i'm always looking forward to holidays now

2011-02-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

CNY is over. ):
now i want the recess week to come quicker. roar.

studio's tomorrow but i'm so lazy to do work. :/

i want to nua!!

horrible time to nua though.
but it's a horrible time to do work too.

go xi fa cai, anyway. (:

samquek

i identify myself with comic books

2011-02-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

cathay's mom:
hi, sweetie. how's it going?

cathay:
just great, mom. in the last week, i have subjected myself to the lowest form of degradation... i have put my ego on the line and had it squashed.. i have wadded up what was left of my self-esteem and flung it right down the sewer..

cathay's mom:
SHE'S DATING AGAIN!!!

samquek

psalms 32:7 - 10

2011-02-04T18:08:00.002+08:00

You are my hiding place;
You will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverence.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

Do not be like the horse or mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and brindle
or they will not come to you.

Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the Lord's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in Him

samquek

we used to sing this song

2011-02-04T17:58:00.001+08:00

romans 16:20
and the God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet.

samquek

why am i still hoping?

2011-02-03T02:20:00.002+08:00

i'll just keep laughing and smiling.
cause they can at least keep the tears and sadness away for awhile

samquek

and how i wish you would read this

2011-02-03T00:13:00.002+08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There're many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

the reason by hoobstank

samquek

what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger

2011-02-01T12:35:00.002+08:00

i know i definitely won't die from it. but sometimes, i really wish i could so that the horrible feeling would just go away.

i really have no idea why i cant let go.
closing my eyes and whispering 'go away, go away' can only help for a short amount of time.

i'm so tired.

samquek

horrible day

2011-01-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

really.. i should learn by now that saving money on aki only brings more problems which then leads to spending more money. sighs.
i cant believe it has only been 3 weeks of school.
thank goodness chinese new year holidays are coming. (:

which is after interim for deisgn and submission for akicon first assignment.
just a few more days to having a good break.
and getting money.

goodness knows how much i sspent for the past 3 weeks on aki stuff.
bahh.

i'm learning urban planning right now and it really sounds interesting. i am considering to take that route (urban landscape) rather than design.. though design is still fun and nice too. haha.

just stressful.

bah..

alright. back to work..

samquek

aja

2011-01-24T22:51:00.002+08:00

in these three weeks, i felt as in i grew a few years older..
not in terms of wisdom or knowlegde. that, im probably still an infant.
i feel so so tired in all aspects.

but it is really really so strange..
why am i still hoping?

i wonder is it really because i am hoping in the Lord..

at least..
my current tutor isn't a slavedriver like my previous one. haha.
so.. i got a week before interim to do all my drawings and models nice nice and awesome.

samquek

it's not the same as before

2011-01-18T09:57:00.002+08:00

maybe it's because of time.

school is getting crazier for some weird reason.
it feels as if there's more work to be done now than before last semester..
hmmmm..

i'm so sleepy.

samquek

drizzling

2011-01-15T01:04:00.003+08:00

everyday goes by, with you somehow drifting further and further away.
and it is really getting so hard to just wait upon the Lord.
and it has only been a couple of weeks or just slightly more than that?

you can't and won't hear me anymore..
if only you know when i say 'take care and have a blessed day' every night, it actually means 'o dyozz vstr dp dp dp qivj gpt upi smf o qodd upi ya yjr apomy ejrtr qu jrsty svyiszzu jityd ajudovszzu.'

why can't you just open your eyes to the obvious and at least try..

it drizzled today when i went outdoor.
feels like a promise from God.

first week of school. lots of work. sighs.
but it is fun.. stressful, money-spending, energy consumin, hectic but fun.

samquek

goodbye holidays, for now.

2011-01-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

no more sleeping late.
no more waking uplate.
no more watching korean dramas for 6 hours a day.

time for aki.
and i'm all ready.
fearing and worrying takes up half the energy needed for aki so i really should stop being afraid.

and i'm finally going back to dancing.
well.. i hope 'hiphop fit' is at least 50percent dancing.

samquek

coffee actually works on me!

2011-01-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

iphone really makes you look pro. haha

Yesterday, we received an overwhelming number of reader responses to David’s post regarding how much architects make per hour. To follow up, we found a list, via @casinclair on Twitter, of the top jobs for 2011. The list places an architect at spot 108, just under a vending machine repairer (107), a cashier (105) and an insurance agent (103). On the survey’s measure of stress, how’s this: a surgeon (spot 101) received a score of 30.580 for stress, while an architect received a score of 39.930! Yet, we were surprised to see that an architectural drafter places at spot 66 on the list (with a stress measure of 17.410). By the way, in case you were wondering, the list rated a software engineer as the best job for 2011 (stress measure=10.400), followed by a mathematician and an actuary.

-taken from archdaily

bahhhh..
anyway. had a good time today! (:
good food. good places. good weather. good company.

oh.. and in honour of sharlyn who, and i quote exactly, 'ticks every boxes below the posts everytime' she visits, there's is a box just for her now. (:

tell me if any of you wants a box too yeah? haha.

samquek

if happy, get through somehow.

2011-01-05T01:51:00.001+08:00

i'm really praying for you.
please be alright and happy.

samquek

elephant said byebye for now?

2011-01-04T01:35:00.005+08:00

i hate night time because i think the most when i lie down on my bed, tired but not able to sleep.
i also hate waking up because it feels so much better when i have my eyes closed.

i'm holding the elephant now.
praying like crazy.

if it's meant to be, it will be.
that's what im telling myself.

samquek

it feels better when i close my eyes

2011-01-03T14:42:00.001+08:00

i lost a friend.

and 2nd january felt like a year, by itself before i finally slept and woke up to the next day.

samquek

wanna scream but you're down to your last breathe

2011-01-02T04:48:00.002+08:00

i feel like i didn't really enter 2011 on a happy note.
so anyway, new year resolutions

1. GET BACK TO DANCING, dammit.
2. GOD as center of my life and expectations
3. EXERCISE, run at least 2 times a week
4. LOVE everyone

it's 5am now.
on 2nd jan.

i'm waiting for 7am to come.
so that i can run.

hahahahahah.

gesh.

samquek

2011

2011-01-02T03:23:00.002+08:00

i'm going to be 21 this year.
OMGOODNESS
i never really thought that i would actually actually reach this age.. HAHA
21 feels so much older than 20.
):

and yet i'm still on square one.

no new year resolution yet.
that's new.
show's how packed my december holidays was.

samquek

my body is being 40 years old while my mind is acting like it's 13 years old

2010-12-30T02:19:00.002+08:00

no one should talk to me when im like that.
honestly.
it always end with people not knowing what to say to me and me not knowing what to say to myself.

samquek

every heartbreak makes you stronger

2010-12-29T22:07:00.002+08:00

haha. maybe korean dramas really ruin today's romance because real guys just don't do what the guys do in dramas.

sighs..

men..

just a few more days before the new year.

this year kinda passed really fast.
wow.

samquek

you're beautiful

2010-12-26T21:30:00.003+08:00

oh dear. im turing into a fangirl like chelle. haha. (: but there is something about the songs used in korean dramas that make me go 'awww.. heartmeltzzz'.

i havent done this for a really long time.

I shouldnt have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didnt see it, like I couldnt see it
I shouldnt have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasnt listening
like I didnt hear it, like I couldnt hear it
I shouldnt have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you’re not here anymore
Otherwise it’s the same as before

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised

and what's with the 'the nice guy not getting the girl'?
haha. i mean. okay laaa, the main guy lead is cute and funny and nice deep down inside.. but he always treat the girl badly at first.

geee..

samquek

Christmas, isnt christmas, till it happens in your heart

2010-12-25T01:17:00.001+08:00

merry christmas, folks.

samquek

camp david

2010-12-23T03:29:00.002+08:00

i saw this on tim's facebook

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." - C. S. Lewis

camp was good.
to be honest, it wasnt great, but it was good.
the fellowship was great. the impact made was subtle but still good. a good reminder. a good encouragement.

even though it has been 5 days, i feel foreign, using my handphone and laptop.

and oh, i got back my results. isnt fantastic but im making improvements. praise the Lord.

samquek

its a stinging sort of feeling at the back of your throat

2010-12-17T01:21:00.002+08:00

thats the sensation i get when im about to cry.
i cried quite a bit for this week.
not just for dramas

haha..

but the crying wasnt like the huffing sort of 'im crying so much that i cant breathe properly' but the 'tears are welling up but im not going to let them fall'.

the guilt of hiding it is replaced with the guilt of breaking promises.

am i freaking going to live with a different kind but constant guilt all the time?

i hope..
camp answers my questions..

even though i do not really know what sort of questions i am really asking

and i hope, when it does, it is not too late.

and..
i dont understand how is it that the heart actually physically aches when you are sad.

can you be so sad and hurt mentally that it turns physical?
or..
can you actually imagine the pain so vividly that it seems so real?

but seriously.
she's not worth it la. why are you so attracted to her when she is lazy, fat, stupid, useless, immature and *continues to list all the bad qualities*

a chapter is closing, with a new one opening.

why is it that chapters do not close with happy endings?

samquek

when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

2010-12-15T23:41:00.004+08:00

im glad im exhausted now. couldnt get much sleep last night.
because i kept thinking.

thinking is awful. especially at night.

like.. you start to think about things you have and had not done.
and you start thinking about how useless you are.. and whats the point of doing whatever you are doing..

i just realize there are people who actually tick the boxes below the posts (points down)
WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE??!!

haha.

i saw bunnies today.
bunnies now make me sad.
even though they are so cute. and fluffy.

samquek

dramas is about 'not being open'

2010-12-15T01:09:00.001+08:00

seriously, the main characters never come out and say what they really truly feel.
and when they do, its happily ever after.

so, why cant they just be open with one another from the very beginning?

gesh.

samquek

i wonder how, i wonder why

2010-12-15T00:51:00.004+08:00

i wonder how isaiah felt,when God told him that his wife will die, as a sign to israel that they wiould die as a nation.

and that he could not even grieve for his wife. but to carry on acting normal.

christianity is for the weaklings? christianity/ religions just tie people down?

is it not enough that im saved?
what is truly stopping me from being self-centered?

maybe i stil havent gotten the idea of living for His glory.

maybe.

i can find many answers to many of my questions.

but i cant find the understanding of them, for my heart.

the heart is a deceitful thing though.

samquek

the good, the bad and the ugly

2010-12-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

why cant dramas have the good, the good, and the good.
haha
thats why i prefer cartoons.

so..

things are more or less settled.

samquek

and it gets messier

2010-12-13T00:52:00.003+08:00

its like a drama.
just that we arent as pretty, or handsome or witty as the actors.

at least, im not.

im watching full house now and it is awesome (:
and im in love with one of the theme songs.

it really feels like 'awww, my heart is melting'

haha.
three bears. ^^

samquek

heartbreaker

2010-12-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

with everything done for the year, it's time to watch my full house drama.

oh wait, there is still christmas.

bahhh.

im so tired.
and.. worried..
plus confused

urgh.

it doesn't change even after 7 years

samquek

to like or dislike

2010-12-05T01:19:00.002+08:00

natalie tran is in singapore!!!
AHHH!!!. i wanna take a picture with her!!! ): ): ):

but.. she was kinda dissing singapore in her latest lonely planet video and i wasnt sure if i like that..
i mean.. okayyy.. some stuff are true and funny but.. others are like 'you dont even know WHY this happens and you make fun of it'

like the 'no durian' sign in the mrt station.
i mean..

i wont like the smell polluting the train.. especially when its crowded.

ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS CROWDED. not only do you die from the lack of air (sometimes, i really feel like fainting), but have you ever gotten STABBED in the leg by a durian?? yeahh.. STABBED. i had. and i was freaking wearing JEANS.

so yeahh.. the 'no durians' on trains is a good one.

DONT DISS IT.

):

roar..
but i still like her. she's funny.

haha

samquek

this is why you should never try to be a cheapskate

2010-12-05T00:05:00.004+08:00

failed attempt with fruit tarts ):
because i tried to be cheapo with the ingredients. so it doesnt look nice. sighs. it needs green and red. like kiwi and strawberry. yeaahh..

plus the tarts were burnt since i baked them too long and the custard itself didnt really look like how i thought it should look like. my cream thingy looked egg-y. well.. there is supposed to be eggs in fruit tarts but i dont think they are meant to look egg-y. like.. steamed egg kind of egg-y ):

okayyy.. going to try again tomorrow or monday.

i feel so poor though.
):

samquek

sometimes, you dont need a reason to like something

2010-12-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

person A: hey, do you like the esplanade?

person B: yeahh.. i like it a lot..

person A: haha.. why??

person B: because.. because.. IT'S SO PRETTY!!!

person A: . . . . not what i would expect from an architecture student.

samquek

fish fish fish

2010-12-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

second time frying fish with lemon.
bahhh.. too much lemon. and too little flour.
i think maybe i should add in an egg so that the flour will stick to the fish easier.

and i need to come up with a special sauce. hahahahahaha.

okayyy.. this coming friday, i shall do FRUIT TARTS (:

samquek

long awaited holidays

2010-12-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

first day of holidays after the exams.
thankgoodness. just when it feels like it wouldnt come.
(:

but i think i have to stay home for the first few days since the others arent really done.
roar..

my body clock is all screwed up now :/
sighs.

now..
im going to learn how to cook and knit during the december holidays.

haha

-.-

samquek

amnesia

2010-11-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

i figure instead of dropping whatever im doing and trying to start a whole new life, it's better and easier to get amnesia.

so..

hmmmm..

one more day to the last paper.
amazing. i had 2 months of lack of sleep with cutting cardboad and smelling uhu glue and breathing in bamboo dust.. but it went pass faster than studying for 3 papers in 2 weeks.

one more day to play.

and one more day nearer to christmas.

(:

samquek

the inner demons

2010-11-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

they make me want to run away from even the good stuff i have in life. at times like this, i feel like just letting go of everything i have and do and just try to start a whole new life.

because of pride, embarrassment and shame.

sometimes, it feels like starting a whole new life is easier than letting go and forgetting your past mistakes and horrors.

i miss dancing.

1Peter 2:1-3
1 Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. 2 Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, 3 now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.

samquek

dumb and dumber

2010-11-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

i always walk out of the examination feeling sad and stupid. honestly, what's with tutors trying to set the most obscure questions? it is as if the most obscure things will ever come out in real life. i mean.. it is obscure for a reason right?

sighs.
but i guess it is my fault for not going for lecture. ):
even though i was pretty consistent with my work load this semester, i wasn't for lectures. ):

but the lectures were utterly boring! haha. i mean. i like history and usually, it sends me into a very story telling mood.

ah well.

i shall just pray and see how.

had a strange dream.
recently, it has always been about a certain something..
and that keeps me really confused and it's awful.

):

samquek

scared of what you'd say

2010-11-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

1 down, 2 more to go and then i can play. (:
yay.
but i think essays are horrible cause you study so many interesting topics but you just cant discuss all of them in the exams. ):
holidays have been getting funner and funner..
for some reasons..

hmmm..

i feel so tired of studying already. i want to play! ):
hopefully, i can go genting with michelle, wynne and becca this december. it would be fun.

(:

a week has gone by.. but i still do not know what to do.

shoots.

):

studying nation building has been fun.
politics are actually funny, like funny haha kind of funny, when you are not involved in them.

i cant wait for christmas..
(:

samquek

passwords

2010-11-17T01:57:00.001+08:00

im so sick of hsving multiple passwords. i always forget which one goes with which acconut. roar

and i want exams to be over. ):

samquek

faithful to the end

2010-11-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

hebrews 11:1
now faith is being sure of what we hope for and centain of what we do not see

faith isnt exactly my strongest point when it comes to being sure of the goodness of God's actions in my life.

but everytime i look back, i really thank God for the people and opportunities He placed in my life, even the whatihoughtas horrible people and events.

samquek

its mugging time. oh what joy!

2010-11-15T14:09:00.002+08:00

okay, im actually rather lazy to start mugging. haha. but.. my papers are rather spread out. one on the 22nd, the second on the 23 and the last one which is an open book is on the 29. so this week, i just have to study for the first two and then the last one after the first two papers. (:

so.. this week.

mon: stay home and do NB
tues: study with becca, wynne and chelle and do NB (we havent met up for ages!)
wed: go school, do survey, print panel, find someone to mug with.. maybe serene?? di hist
thurs: do hist. submit panel. find huiling to mug with?? go timbre with studio for dinner
friday: meet up with GRACE! mug hist.

sat and sun: church. family. cg. mug NB

alright. need to buy snacks and then mug! haha

samquek

it actually feels weird

2010-11-13T02:29:00.002+08:00

not having to wake up before 12pm, being able to sleep before 2am, not holding a penknife in my hang..

i slacked the whole day, allowed more than my daily supply of rubbish in my head and bascially pigged out the entire day.

it doesnt feel good as it did when i was younger.

not that i am old or anything.

samquek

liking random fb stuff makes you learn random stuff

2010-11-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

for instance, i learn that by stretching the spring in the pen or adding another spring into the pen, the pen bounces higher.

i should try that soon.
pity that there isnt anymore lecture for this year.

. . . .

omgoodness.
im going into my 4th semester of university soon.
0.o

samquek

smiling from cheek to cheek

2010-11-13T00:34:00.002+08:00

design is finally over. (:
i was happy doing design.
i am happier having a break.

haha.
now to mug.

it hasnt been raining. ):

you're going off soon.
geee..
i dont really know what will happen when you come back, to tell you the truth.

samquek

alright. before i really go and not get sidetrack anymore..

2010-11-07T02:28:00.003+08:00

i replaced my comment link with a cbox onw on the.. erm.. right.
i cant believe i still have to think which side is my right and left.
so anyway.. yes.

no more reason to not post a comment, you lazy people. dont think i dont know you read my blog.
haha.

now i sound like an egoristic person who thinks her blog is really popular.

i guess it is.
it is really popular to spams.
hence, im removing my comment link. its fine if they wanna spam my cbox.. i guess. haha.

okayy. i really should do my quiet time..

seize the day.

james 4: 13 - 17
'now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesnt do it, sins'

awesome verses.
i love the book of james. (:

righto.

samquek

and when you smile, the whole world stops to stare for awhile

2010-11-07T00:42:00.002+08:00

i am really enjoying the times i spend with my cg. i am glad we are getting close. but, the only problem with getting closer with them is that.. if anything screws up, i will feel extremely sad and disappointed.

especially when it seems that ill probably be the reason for the screw up.

as usual i guess.

it's funny how you can be so happy, chatting and laughing with your friends.. and then.. be so emo and lonely at night.

today's sermon was good.
james 4:13 - 18

it was about prayers and seizing the day. (:

so, that is what i am going to do.

it has been a long while since i did my quiet time. i am going to challenge myself to do my QT daily despite the hectic aki work.

and..

i realized.. while thinking about my future and stuff.. i havent prayed to God about it.
so.. yeaahh.. no time like the present.
(:

okayy. i havent completed my model. the building of the stairs is taking forever and i need to build 4 of it so.. it is forever times four. and there's the making of the portfolio. goodness. but yeah.

i should do my q.t first.

then maybe i go eat instant mee. haha..

samquek

annoyed

2010-10-30T02:57:00.000+08:00

you know, sam.. there IS a reason why you deleted those links. so stop it.

samquek

when i feel like giving up..

2010-10-30T01:35:00.001+08:00

i just look at pretty aki buildings, pick up my penknife and continue cutting..

but ddm is really pushing my limits.
bahhh..

samquek

i love this time of the year

2010-10-29T17:47:00.002+08:00

because it's beginning to smell like christmas.
sighs. singapore.. people usually associate snow with christmas. i associate rain with christmas. -.-

i want to go overseas. ):

i love rain

i just realized from '12 days of christmas', that christmas actually starts on 13th december!!! (: (: like, officially. haha

omgoodness. im high on christmas now. (:

well.. it's going to be a year..

. . . . .

and it's hard to tell you hoew i really feel right now.

crap.

samquek

home

2010-10-21T16:12:00.001+08:00

studying on my bed is nice. no distraction because i cant find teen titans online. so.. im actually forced to study. and if im lazy, i just go to sleep. then forced to wake up cause i am not tired anymore, to do work.. and it just goes on.

getting back my momentum again.

it is actually not consistent even though i have been ultra proud of my work ethnics for the past weeks.

samquek

studio

2010-10-21T10:42:00.001+08:00

when there is no studio, i get slacker. NOOOO!!!
just three more weeks. hang in there.

samquek

not meant to be

2010-10-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

i wish i can get you off my mind.
at times, i really thought i can go on without you..

i really wish to stop being hurt by you.

why am i closing my heart when i should be opening it

samquek

recharged

2010-10-20T01:21:00.001+08:00

one good solid day of resting. (:
cant help feeling a little guilty though. haha.
watching spiderman and his amazing friends plus teen titans is making me happy.

i dont want to think about bad stuff anymore.

samquek

my tongue is about to bleed

2010-10-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

i shall not say anything.
i shall refrain from saying anything.

but that doesnt stop me from feeling agitated and slightly pissed off.

i thought you would know better.
a penny for my thoughts, indeed.

samquek

bite your tongue

2010-10-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

i think i have to learn not to say everything that is on my mind.
at least, not without thinking..
and.. sometimes, even after thinking about it like crazy.

assignments after assignments. it is going to be so so crazy.
Dear God. Please give me strength.

samquek

cityhall

2010-10-07T01:35:00.001+08:00

i love the esplanade area now.. it is so so beautiful with many pretty buildings. haha. the only horrible thing is the Hong Kong copy Laser show. sighs.

samquek

suitcase of memories

2010-10-05T05:27:00.005+08:00

happy 21st birthday marianne! welcome back to singapore! <3

friendster brings back memories. (:

a start of a new design.

samquek

i give up. im sick of it.

2010-10-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

i'm sick of guys.

samquek

revit was supposed to make life easier!

2010-09-29T00:58:00.002+08:00

i gess revit is not for dummies.
less than 35 hour o go for revit submission.
so much for 'it gets easier as you go along'

i hate making stairs even though they can be pretty and the whoe focus of the building.
bleah you, stairs, for wasting my time for nothing.

cant wait for bak ku teh! (:

samquek

turning over to a brand new leaf no.504

2010-09-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

the first half of semester 3 started off well but left a horrible taste in my mouth. took one whole week to sulk and refresh myself..

so..

yup, i shall work even harder for the rest of this semester.
(:

i havent done a single proper work this week.
and there're two submissions this week.
with one tomorrow.

better start cracking.

work. DANCE. spiritual life.
okay.
go sam go.

samquek

so much for being happy

2010-09-22T19:12:00.001+08:00

im feeling troubled.
:/

samquek

happy belated birthday

2010-09-21T00:52:00.002+08:00

hope this week will be a fun birthday week thingy. haha.
<3

samquek

a circle of rainbow above the structure

2010-09-17T11:32:00.007+08:00

6 weeks of bamboo's worth of fats, stress, frustration, going to school on weekends and exhuastion become insignificant after 1 day of construction.

(:

its finally over.

happy isn't enough to describe how i feel.
~~probably its more of a sick with a cold, exhausted from the lack of sleep from the past weeks, relieved cause its finally over and excited for the next week's kind of happy~~

i'm still alive.
(:
after 2 weeks of madness.
i guess i shouldnt be surprised that i am still alive, barely, but still alive..

actually, i'm a little amazed that i am still alive.

the end of the bamboo project commenced with two nights of merely a hour of sleep each and 5 days and then nation builidng test and a presentation to prepare and a reading response to do.

but it felt like the end when i saw the second level up.

i feel so happy that i think i can just die from happiness.
okay, so it is not like saying i am super free next week.
but..

i can finally stay away from school
and i can do work at home
and in starbucks

and i can sleep whenever i want.

it's funny..
how when i am so so tired, i can think of the weirdest things. like..

1.
just like there is always room for desserts, there is always energy for camwhoring.

2.
after 5 years of architecture, aki students will leave the school, with the skills of architecture as well as the ability of being able to sleep anywhere.

i cant remember the rest. okay. i want to sleep.
sleep is good.
will try to wake up at 9am to do work!!

ciao
samquek

emo-ing

2010-09-11T01:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i hate going onto facebook and seeing all the latest posts.
it makes me sad and a little envious to see most of them being happy and.. contented?

i am contented with my life..
i think..
i dunno..

maybe aki is getting to me.
i feel sad that im missing out on church and my friends.

and dance..

i miss dance.
and my friends.
and God.

i talked to a few christian aki friends about it..
the whole 'should aki be the most important thing in our life'?

and i got different answers.
but somehow,i think they are leaning towards a yes..

. . . . .

just one more week then semester break.
just one more week..

samquek

i love aki but i also love my life

2010-09-10T00:44:00.003+08:00

despite my post i made about it's no longer TGIF, this week is reaslly TGIF because.. it's hari raya!!!

i still have to go school though. to do work. hshs. just that there is no submission or tutorial or lecture to go to. (:

just one more week of madness and then..
at least a little of my life back..

bamboo splinters stuck in my hands
millin and one bruises from bumping into almost everything from the past few days due to sleep
eyebags under my first eyebags..

being happy that i am on my bed.. and knowing that i do not have to wake up one or two hours later to do work.

Thank you Lord, for the fact that i am still alive and happy.

i miss all my friends though. i miss having chances to camwhore. i want to go hiking with my cg too. ):

samquek

Maybe working to death is actually worthwhile

2010-09-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

lack or too much of sleep causes early death, as seen from many many research papers.

if that is the case, then most architects would probably die young.
work till you drop and die?
haha.

but seriously, i was really thinking that i might just die from exhaustion during these two works. and i have been thinking to myself.. i think i can doing much better in year 2 as compared to year 1 in terms of commitment and maybe.. if i dare say, in the technical and architecture aspects as well?

so.. i have been working hard. to do my very best for all my assignments, to complete them on time, to be disciplined.. until i get headaches from my dying brain cells due to lack of sleep.
and i have been focusing on aki mostly, neglecting my other parts of my life.

so.. is it all worth it?

using revit to digitally design my adaptation of the transportable tourist tower for the past few days makes me curse like crazy in my mind as well as makes me feel satisfied at the thought of actually designing a real building for the first time.

i am having fun, despite of the tiredness and the dying of brain cells.

okay. back to work.
tomorrow is the submission for DDM and i decided to redo the bulk of it.
(:

ill post the pictures of my TTT adaption the next time i blog.
Cheers

samquek

letmecatchmybreath

2010-09-07T01:23:00.002+08:00

horrible week, this week is.
):
i think ill lose a lot of brain cells due to lack of sleep.

started off with a bang of having merely half an hour of sleep cause of studio work (omgosh!!! i really cant wait for the end of next week ): )
reached home only at 515pm (and that is because i decided to leave halfway through studio cause of a horrible headache, the need of sleep, and the need of some energy to do my readings for my other modules), had lunch and slept till 11pm.

so now.. i think its another sleepless night.
):

at least the days are passing fast so..
it is stressful yet fast and not stressful and agonizingly slow.

i think..
i really need to work on my socializing skill. it is slowly depleting to a negative 10 - not that it was even a perfect 10 in the first place but still..

it's funny how i thought i was a people's person when right now, i just want to hang around with one or two or three people at a time, just do my work by myself (even though doing as a group improves my workmanship and ideas) and just.. stone..

i feel so distanced from everyone and even God because of school and whateverthathasbeenhappening.

but i guess.. i am being more civillised and more daughterly to my mom than ever before..
granted that she lied to me and said the soup was bak ku teh soup when it was actually chicken soup.
i was so upset.

bahhh

samquek

one way to change a leopard's spots is to paint over it

2010-09-04T01:33:00.003+08:00

a couple of my current studio mates, some bamboo structure thingy that we were trying out at the back and in between, an exhausted studio mate who goes high on lack of sleep.. when she is awake. haha

i had an off week.
and when i mean off, i mean.. ill-disciplined.
gouging myself with food, not going for lectures, sleeping in and still having the cheek to feel tired.

-.-

i shopped yesterday. (: it has been quite awhile since i shopped. it felt nice (:
and gosh damn it, im getting fatter. NOOOOO. ):
hope i can go for dance lesson with my oldest brother soon.

sleep. 3 hours plus of sleep before waking up for school.

samquek

it's no longer TGIF

2010-09-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

third weekend in the row that i have to go back to school.
im going to have a crazy weekend.

4 readings and a powerpoint presentation to do for SEA history of aki
4 readings and a reading responsr to do for sustainable aki
a 3d modelling of a buidling and printing of a book for digital design
and of course.. there is still studio work.

and it is seriously not about time management here.

roarrr..

samquek

preparing to work is a new way of procastination

2010-09-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

it's like, trying to work without actually really doing work.
0.o
haha.
i'm lazy. the feeling of wanting to slack and just sleep just like first year is coming back. NOOOO. ): ): ):

okay. so..
i'm looking out for a tutee now.
bahhh.

and im looking out for a decent and cheap dance group that i can join once a week.

geee..

and.. i will never ever go out ever again on wednesday nights.

samquek

sleep will be the death of me

2010-09-01T10:40:00.003+08:00

missed 1 NB lecture
2 SA lectures
and 3 SEAHis lectures

in 4 weeks.

and it's all because of.. sleep

and attending DDM lectures is kinda beyond hope already.

sighs.
damn sian.

off to school i go.

samquek

silent readers

2010-08-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

i think there are actually more than 1 (jacq. hahahahaha) people who read my blog!

well, thanks for not letting me know, huh??
just reading my ~~secrets~~ vulnerable feelings and thoughts and then surprising me with questions that make me realize you (a general you. not referring to anyone specifically) read my blog

i mean.. its fine to read my blog but at least tell me!!!
i may go 'ohhh. errr...' for a few minutes but that's it. ~~ill just have to guard my thoughts abit more~~

anyway, i took a, what i thought, well deserved break today.
(:
yay

alright. back to work

samquek

is it like a school thing or something?

2010-08-29T14:14:00.000+08:00

i woke up feeling like crap.
and i can name a few reasons why.
off to school i go.

samquek

immaturity hits again

2010-08-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

wasn't really in my best behavior tonight.
and then everything just went back to what it was two years ago just that i'm older now and things are reversed.
i went back home, feeling so screwed up, annoyed with my childish behavior and gosh.. i didnt think i could get anymore confused and heartbroken than before. or maybe confused isnt really the right word. more like 'two-headed'?

and i couldnt say anything because i am not in a position to say anything and when i open my mouth to speak, everything was just so fake.

even the 'christian' stuff sounded so so fake and hypocritical.

why are you crippling me slowly? maybe it hurts more, maybe it doesn't but.. why dont you just snap me in an instant so that i will know there will no longer be any more painer feelings.

i left my house, all happy and excited for the night. As evening comes, things just got down, down, down, down.

maybe it is a good time to seek refuge in the studio.
away from feelings. away from close ones.

just me, models and the stress to complete anassignment.

samquek

in every hello, there is a little goodbye

2010-08-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

hello 7days of school a week
hello unhealthy fried food
hello studiomates

goodbye, old friends??
at least for awhile.

samquek

so how are you, sam?

2010-08-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

i have been busy.
it's hard to adjust. to be honest. but being busy is keeping me from feeling too sad.

~~i still miss you so so much.~~

it's a hour to friday.
the third friday since school reopened.

thank God i don't really have any assignment beside doing readings for 3 of my modules.

i hate computering.
then again, if i get used to it, it will be less tedious as compared to drawing by hand.

i hate the world then.
every one and everything is just screaming out why he/she/it is the best and why the other sucks.
i'm confused.

and being confused doesn't sit well with me cause i get cranky.

either i am sure of something, or i just dont think at all.
period

samquek

sleeping is disrupting my schedule

2010-08-25T22:23:00.002+08:00

people are telling me different things about sleep

matt:
your body works in multiple of threes. so you should sleep for 3, 6, 9 hours to wake up feeling alert

chelle:
my brother said after 8 hours of sleep, your body resets itself. that's why you feel tired after sleeping for 9, 10, 11 hours

yenny:
6 is no good. 7 is better. that's what i have been reading

-.-
i overslept two times in row.
BAHHHH!!!
cause of sleep..

that's bad.
i cannot not go for lectures. ):

alright. back to work.
tomorrow is thursday but im not panicking or having lack of sleep cause my tutor is out of town.
heeheeheeheehee

samquek

erratic sleeping and eating

2010-08-25T02:23:00.002+08:00

that's what aki does to you.
work load is actually not that bad despite the initial despair abouy having to do weekly readings for my 4 other modules.

i hate satay sticks so so much.
i think i prefer cardboard. it is slightly easier to deal with.
i thought i saw the last of satay sticks like a semester ago but.. i guess this will not be the very last time of me using satay sticks.

it's 230am..
i just woke up.
horrible time to be full awake when you need to leave the house at 730am because its too early to wake up since you'll get sleepy at noon time.

i got a 5days week of school. :/

sighs.

samquek

i never knew this will hurt so badly

2010-08-16T02:50:00.003+08:00

2nd week of school. weekends pass awfully fast when you have school. ):
sleepless nights, lack of time to write letters and replies to friends.
i'm sorry if i havent replied you yet.

confusion and busy-ness is another couple that doesnt go well together.

maybe it is for the best. the decision i mean.
since im so busy
and since you're not relly affected that badly

alright. sleep for 3 hours then back to work.

samquek

teardrops on my guitar?

2010-08-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

it's has nothing to do with the song. it's just that.. today had teardrops and guitar in it, so i thought of this title.

i cant remember the last time i cried so much.. for so long and till i have an awful headache. i never know you can cry till you get a headache.

i'm so sorry.

God, i hope this is according to Your plan.
i feel like being upset over this with You but i guess that is stupid of me to do that.
i pray that You can still watch and never give up on him.

samquek

work, eat, sleep

2010-08-13T05:30:00.002+08:00

saw this on jessie's wall status. haha.
i'm tired. i feel so sleep deprived. haha.

i think you could tell that im tired since im laughing at the end of every sentence. haha?

536am on a friday.
bahh.
funny how my tutor gave us double the work to do in half the time as compared to the previous prob. (no more haha-ing)

well, at least you and your friends will ave fun bitching about work
clement

at least the first week kicked off with a good start. (:
so in a sense, i am satisfied with this week's work (though i hardly play and socialized but that doesn't really matter for now i guess)

alright. back to doing work,

it's friday the 13th..
hmmm

samquek

a public holiday means extra time to do work for aki students

2010-08-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

it is a start of a new semester.
year 2.

a fresh start
to be more diligent, to be more hardworking and productive and to be more serious and passionate with my work.

and so far, i think i am doing well (we were given work last thursday already. :/ thank God mon was a public holiday. haha)
i am a third done with whatever i need to present on thursday so yay!

this long weekend was rather overwhelming for me. gosh. school work, two weddings, cg stayover, tuition and making sure i still have time for my boyfriend. it was insane.

the wedding ceremonies got me thinking.
it is really troubling, the situation i am in now..
but im beginning to understand what my friends have been saying

i want to do the right (Godly) thing but everytime i see you, my determination crumbles like an apple crumble.

if it is meant to be, it will be??

i really hope so.

samquek

busy + anxiety = crankiness

2010-08-07T21:43:00.002+08:00

the want to just be alone and have minimum contact with people is coming back to me. sighs.
be strong, sam. be strong.

i feel like a weakling, someone so easily tempted by the idea to slack and to play.

samquek

What i learned from cooking..

2010-08-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

Pasta:
pasta without bacon bits isnt pasta

fried fish:
cheese doesn't go well with it
*wrinkles nose*

samquek

i feel so stupid

2010-08-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

lowest common multiple. BAHHHH. who even uses THAT after secondary school.
i feel dumb.
): ): ):

but it was fun doing maths again.
i just hope the tutee doesn't think im' useless. :/

and chelle and i wasted 501 points on a module.
now i feel dumber
haha
but i supposed it's worth it since we're going to be classmates again!!! wheee.
(: (: (:

tomorrow is thursday.
so fast. ):

i cant even remember what i did last week!!

samquek

before we turn to stone

2010-08-04T00:09:00.002+08:00

i hate it when you are not happy because it makes me feel so helpless and useless and.. un-needed.

why in the world would someone steal a wallet with less than 10bucks inside, an atm card which will not work after entering the password wrongly three times, some cards and a few other 'sentimental' junk??

i hope you at least have some nice-ness in you to return back his wallet after taking away the money. or at least, drop it on the floor, and not in a rubbish bin, and let some nice souls see it and then return it back to him.
you horrible person. ):

i feel like hating you for making him unhappy.

samquek

bidding gives me white hair

2010-08-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

oh please please please let michelle and i get the same module together!

samquek

1 more week

2010-08-01T03:47:00.002+08:00

funny how most of my recent posts is just counting down to something. -.-
that's awfully sad. bahhh

but anyway, 1 more week plus to school.
i really pray that i will survive this semester and that i will stop being a lazy ass and start being studious and hardworking. :/

maybe it is a good thing that onemanga shut down. haha.

so, if all things go well, i will have fridays free from going to NUS.

i'm going to give tuition twice a week, starting from this coming week. im pretty nervous about it, about teaching and about me coping with the overall work load.. but, 3 hours a week, with a really good pay, is rather worth it. then i can save up for a nice holiday next year! (:

haha.

i cant sleep.
:/

ahhh, there goes my plan of wanting to wake up at 9am daily. :/
and there went my plan for wanting to exercise.

roar.

a few minutes before this, i wanted to write a long post, about my current relationship, about what i really want out of a few people.. in other words, stuff that i havent been blogging about for ages, in details.
but as usual, the moment i start typing the introduction, the feeling died down and now i am writing about the same old same old, superficial and generalized things.

honestly, i wonder why.

i think, if blogger has an application like facebook.. you know, the one that finds out what are the most common words that person said on facebook.. mine would probably be these few..

1. fat
2. laziness
3. procrastination
4. disappointment

haha. you think so too huh?

awful habits are awfully hard to die.

in a sadistic way, working was good for me. though i really really think working made me fat due to snacking from fattening food and the lack of even walking, it kept me disciplined in terms of doing QT, waking up early, sleeping at a decent time (and not like right now), making me feel efficient and not that lazy as i usually am..

it is a real miracle how i could study so much during my secondary 4 year. it is a miracle how i even passed my a level, not with flying colours though (i'm slightly shameful about that actually), and get into a local university, doing something that at least interest me.

in a sense, i regret and not regret playing a lot during my jc time, since i am still feeling happy (most of the times), about my current point of life.

so it has been 9 months. things are getting mundane, conversations are mostly small talks and short when there isn't any problem between us, a few 'us' problems happened here and there..
and my gosh, it has only been 9 months?? we're not even married!

i wonder do you like silence?

i do, sometimes, i guess.
i guess you do, too, sometimes.
but what if there are more silences than conversations?

i do believe in cheesy fairytales romance because i don't think they are actually cheesy.
maybe people only find it cheesy because they havent been in such situations. or maybe.. it is to cover up their embarrassment in front of everyone??

i should really try to get some sleep.

i should try to blog more often too.

samquek

2 weeks of holiday

2010-07-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

i'm free!
but what a time for one manga to close down
*sulks*

it feels sort of weird actually, to just slack. a bit sad??
haha.
its okay. it's something i can get used to. (:

kingdom hearts, here i come.

im hungry.
this week, i shall learn how to make cheese cake. (:

samquek

it was so perfect in my dream

2010-07-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

last week was supposed to be my last week of work. but.. i decided to work for two more weeks, 3 timea a week.

more money to spend on people. -.-

and then just one week of full bliss before week 1 of school.

ahhh.
to play kingdom hearts
to redesign my room
to meet up with chelle, becca and wynne

to go back to dancing
to lose fats
to find a tuitee

to cook
to knit?

i'm feeling better.
it's just that im starting to have doubts about the relationship.
and the doubts come like more often than i meet you a week.

but they go away the moment you hold my hand and smile at me.

i wish i can make you laugh every day.

take my heart but please dont break it

2010-07-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

i feel like crying. i want to cry. but i shouldn't cry. because, it'll just make things worse.

i want to write a long post, to get rid of the angry, sad, lonely and heart broken feelings i have been having in me but.. i don't know how.

remember how the pervious time, the 'j' isn't working?? now, the 'y' is not working properly. everytime i want to type 'you', it ends up as 'ou'

i wish these awful selfish thoughts will just leave my head.

samquek

a jealous bone

2010-07-04T18:10:00.003+08:00

the 'j' key on my keyboard isn't working so well. a bit hard to press.. roarr..
ironic isnt it?
haha. maybe it's telling me to stop feeling 'jealous'

okay, so i haven't been blogging for ages.
ah well..
been busy, lazy, tired, lazy and blank here and there. most of the times when i feel like blogging were when i was out. haha.

so, the weather has been pretty nice. rainy and stuff.
and i have been feeling happy most of the times..
but not today.
sighs.

today is sunday.
two more weeks of work.
i got my pay.
i'm going to treat my family for dinner for the first time tonight.
haha.

i cant wait to stop working.
not that i hate the place or the job.
i just feel lazy sometimes and i wanna play before school starts again.
roar.
school is starting in a month's time
:/

oh well.

i guess one reasonn why i kinda feel so moody now is because i feel so lousy about myself.
drawing, aki, dance..
argh.
and the whole comparing thingy again.

i really should stop this.
and the whole complaining and wanting more stuff.
gosh.
i think in this way, i am like my mom. :/

it's disgusting.
arghhh

im sleepy.
dinner soon.
i hope my bf comes soon
:/

two more weeks to go.

taking initiative

2010-06-15T22:00:00.001+08:00

sometimes, that is why i hate taking charge of something.
because it always make me feel so stupid and lousy of myself.

and because i tend to handle things the wrong way and make people think badly of me..

pride??

samquek

people are scary

2010-06-15T20:49:00.004+08:00

i will stop reading forums. i will stop reading forums. i will stop reading forums.

people are just so scary.
and annoying.
but more of scary than annoying.
like 5 percent more.

religion is a sensitive issue, indeed.

the world is scary.
and it is because of people.

i guess, for passionate christians, it is sad that we can't really proclaim that Christ is the way to go out loud, because the world would just see it as us being ignorant and insensitive to other religions and it would totally turn people off.
in a sense, it is like, we are right but wrong in the eyes of the world??

a whole new topic altogether..
maybe i should cut down on clothes? maybe i have enough clothes even though they are all mostly second handed and there are just so many pretty things out there..

envy.

i will stop envying and comparing myself to others

i really should work on my english because i dont feel justisfied everytime i write in my blog due to my inadequate english. roarr..

samquek

3rd week

2010-06-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

thank you, Lord, for all of your blessings and strength.

3rd week.
i'm getting used to the idea of working that i no longer dread work.

had fun last weekend with the sec4girls. (: they are so so precious. (:

but i was rather moody for the past few nights.
i dont know. maybe i was just feeling alone? and lousy about myself?
like recent things just make me feel so low and nelow average.
gosh.

i guess i just have to keep telling myself to never give up and to always find joy in the Lord.

i cant wait to go birdpark!
hope i can go next week. (:

samquek

many things, little time

2010-06-08T21:02:00.002+08:00

i dont know if i should keep reading the news. haha. even thrashy news like the free newspapers they give out on weekdays' mornings, yahoo's news and stomp, make me sad.

serious news are usually bad news. like murders and wars and conflicts. and then amusing thrashy news just show the really stupid side of humans that make me go -.-.

news are so so ugly.

the only pretty things in the world are cakes, dresses, buildings, and nature.
oh, actually, i think most of my friends are pretty people!! haha. okay, with such a comment, i guess im being judgemental??

but honestly, it is like..
the people whom i read in the news got their brains eaten by zombies or something.

SIGHS.

anyway..
i found an aki heavan. haha. which is my company. -.-
so many pretty aki books to read and stare longingly at.

i did some interior designing today.
it was.. not fantastic. i mean, the design.
well, granted that it is my first time trying but!!! if i was really talented in drawing or creativity, i would have done an awesome job!!!

hahaha..

i dont know.
there is actually a bit of a 'disappointment/let down' because i am not talented at all and stuff like that..

okayyy, i really should stop wherever i am heading towards and change topic.

i think maybe i should just stop myself from thinking like that everytime, and just do my best..

eeeee..

but anyway, so i stared at many many pretty aki books with pretty interior designs and half the time, i was like 'ohhhh.. i will do this and this and this for my new house'

and chelle should feel honoured cause i was thinking of your new house' interior too!! i was like 'ooohhh, a zen feeling house!!! perfect of chelle' and 'OHHHH!! pretty water basin for toilet.. looks so japanese. okay, add into mental list for chelle's new house' and 'OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH, sliding doors, with short tables and sofas and etc, chelle chelle chelle'

haha..

chelle, you better get at least a semi detached or else my 10years of planning for your house (by the time you get one) will go down the drain.

haha.. for my house??
i really want a sunken living room!! but to have a sunked living room, i wont be able to stay in a high rise!!! ): ): a platform living room is nice too but i still want a sunken living room. it is so so pretty!!!

hahahahah...

sighs..
so i was saying..
many many aki books to read
some christian books to read
somw baking books to read
one knitting book to read and to learn from

sighs...

too many nice things to read and to gaze lovingly at..

pretty cakes, pretty dresses, pretty buildings and houses..

~~and pretty boys from mangas..~~

ima sucker for pretty things. honestly, i love staring at pretty cakes in the show glass at bakeries.. but i dont really actually enjoy eating cakes as much as i like looking at them.. hahaha..

tomorrow is wednesday!!!
3 more days to go and then it is weekend again. (:

samquek

2nd week

2010-06-07T21:11:00.002+08:00

work is fun. the people there are really friendly and sweet. haha. thank God for his providence.
sighs. it's just that the more i talk to those people, the more i feel like ill never be an architect. haha..
i know we can go into interior designing as well but i still like the idea of buidling pretty houses.
hmmmm

i guess it is really all about God's plan..
right now, i should jusy enjoy myself and do the best i can.

result improved slightly, which is still good. i guess i am a little disappointed with my design. but that's probably because i didnt work as hard as the rest so yeahhh.. i shall work on that and maintain the same grades as the rest. (:

great sinngapore sale is here. gosh. so many pretty dresses. (:

got to see my jc classmates last sat and it was really great. i miss them so much. hope we can see one another again before school starts. (:

samquek